unfinished .

Me? Live? HA i wish . icant even breathe my own air without asking permission . icant even be 18 and get treated like an adult . where are you going ? who are you talking to ? who is that ? ive been here for 18 years and i deserve some respect and privacy! freedom is what i should get and understanding is what yu should be . everythings going down the drain like a thick liquid clogging my brain . i cant focus i cant think i cant sleep . i dnt know what to do . my only escape is the tapping noises of my fingers to the keyboard . i live my own life so dont you tell me what i have in my head . dont you dare think you have a clue ! because you dont know me and i dont know you i could careless what you think about when you lay your head down at night . so dont you worry about me! i can take care of myself ive wandered the streets of struggles at night before i know what to do when i need to do it! but lately i cant focus . i cant do anything . i dont even know what to focus on anymore . i have too many people in my life. and i have too many things in my head . my family smothers me. certain peoples presence gives me nausea and i just wanna hide in my room til the next morning . everyday is a routine, a schedule . and i feel like it never ends so i just let it go on and on and on . im on my own out here and thats fine . . . im just as misplaced as a puzzle . . numb and emotionless . . ill be back soon though . ill return to what was once a young free spirit

-Holly Cabrera .